An Eye Opener

Here is how I got to this point. Things just have not been going well and I was feeling miserable. Last week when I was asking God what the problem was, He told me I didn't trust Him enough. I was taken aback and mentally rattled off various scenarios of how and when I trusted Him. Again He said, "You don't trust me enough, you don't trust me 100%".  Wow!  He was right!  Imagine that! I didn't trust Him 100%. My God Who controls all things, and I don't trust Him. I know that I have built walls around me because of being hurt and feeling scared but I realized that I liked being behind those walls because it was safe. But wouldn't being in God's hands be safer? Agghhh! I know that I need to take that plunge into His arms, into His will.

Its like that time mom or dad took the training wheels off your bicycle. They stood behind you, balancing the bike and encouraged you. The fear of falling scared you but you were determined. As you start to peddle, you glance behind you and they are there, balancing you. You start to feel confident, peddling faster. Suddenly, you realize you are actually riding your bike on your own. What a feeling that was!

That's what I need to do, plunge into the midst of my Father's will.

With all that being said, my main prayer now is that He will help me to take that plunge; to tear down the walls and let Him in. And that is exactly what He is doing.